Something is coming from inside of meh.

I was a normal teen,wants to be a punk smoking joints and living on the streets...then i tasted love.Love was skating,smoking,living carelessly with his friends.Love was a demon in an angel's face,pale skin with gorgeous big green eyes.Love was worse but his friends was the worst.

They loved me at first,mocked me at least.They don't get why i wanted to be like them.I just wanted to be adored.It was natural that they didn't understand,cause they were always adored.Pretty skater twink,a combination would every girl cannot say no.

Before them,i was a girl trying to be better.I lost 10 kilos,get more girly and try to express myself.After them,i became into a junk.Gain 20 kilos,tried to kill myself.But everything changed,suprisingly.
While in depression,i was eating and chatting on net all the time.Also downloading all seasons of RuPaul's Drag Race.While watching them,i completely forget skater punks cause i found queers like me.They had being mocked like me,but then they made their own Queendoms.

RuPaul,Nina Flowers,Raja,Yara Sofia,Alexis Mateo and spookiest of them all,Sharon Needles.Thank you for helping me while trying to love myself.I will never forget you and take my revenge in the fishiest way.I was not a gorgeous girl,but i'll became a gorgeous drag queen.

This is the first message of babyborn drag queen Nikki Twinkie.I'll be here and queer.And all of these punk motherfuckers will kill themselves for not having a piece of me!

RuPaullywood or Bust:Review

Just Jade Jolie showing her fishiness.

You know i'm in love with drag queens and i'm gonna show it in the most talented way that i'm in ;WRITING IT UP! First episode of RuPaul's Drag Race has just out (not yet in the torrents but with a little VPN detail,you can watch it from Logo) and i watched it minutes ago.


It was amazing.The mini challenge was really challenging though.A lot of queens did terrible stuff in the sea tank,but posing in a sea tank with all that dresses,shoes,wigs etc. must be tough,right?

Detox under the sea.

Detox was the winner of mini-challenge and she's one of my favourites so i congratulate her! I think she'll gonna do some better stuff.

For main challenge,i made a ranking and i'm gonna comment about queens on that way.So here's my ranking:

1.Alaska Thunderfuck (In Juries' ranking: 2nd)
The duty for main challenge was making Hollywood red carpet couture from things in a dumpster and Alaska literally took no risk with a dress made of
plastic bin bag,but i must add that dress was looking like a 100.000 dollar couture dress.
2.Roxxxy Andrews (In Juries' ranking:1st)
Roxxxy's goth but glam look definitely stood up from other contestants.My only criticism goes to her makeup.A dark red lipstick or a dark pink one would go much better with her nice lips.But with or without makeup,that dark dress shows ass was FAPULOUS!
3.Lineysha Sparx (In Juries' ranking:4th)
I still can't believe her dress was made up of paper.She's definitely a sewing queen.But that amazing thing was definitely not Hollywood.
4.Ivy Winters (In Juries' ranking:3rd)
Her red,simple but beautiful dress was definitely yelling Hollywood but it was too simple to win.And WTF was wrong with that hair?! Ivy must be careful at her hair choosing.
5.Alyssa Edwards (In Juries' ranking:5th)
I totally loved her laced,kinda goth dark red\grey dress! And although she's a hot glue queen,she didn't made out of mess like Jiggly Caliente.However,she really needs to sew in this competititon.
6.Detox (In Juries' ranking:7th)
Her pink dress was definitely cute but just like Lineysha's,it was not yelling Hollywood.It was a good one but unfortunately there were better queens.
7.Jinkx Monsoon (In Juries' ranking:9th)
Turquoise looks great on her but she could add some another color.She's my laugh queen but i don't want her to be the contest's laugh queen cause laugh queens always be labeled as ''not talented enough,only can make everybody laugh''.I hope Jinkx can remove this label and step on it.
8.Honey Mahogany (In Juries' ranking:8th)
Her dress was definitely couture but it was too glamourish for red carpet.
9.Vivienne Pinay (In Juries' ranking:11th)
Her nude dress was yelling red carpet,definitely.But it was too plain! With a lot more dore,it would be definitely fabulous.
10.Coco Montrese (In Juries' ranking:6th)
Coco,the deathly rival of Alyssa,definitely is worse than Alyssa.OK,that dress was completely couture but hot glueing a film folding wheel as a hat is not making you Hollywood glamour,to me.
11.Penny Triation (In Juries' ranking:14th)
She was first queen to go home.I'm sad for that big girl not to show the perfection of us to skinny bitches.But she had to go home because of that pink tight dress.To me,big girls mustn't wear tight dresses,that only makes them look bigger.And her sewing mistakes...i don't really wanna start.
12.Monica Beverly Hillz (In Juries' ranking:10th)
Excuse me honey but Nicki Minaj is not an actress.
13.Jade Jolie (In Juries' ranking:12th)
Only unicorns,rainbows and her great personality would save her from being eliminated but that pinky and 5yrsold girly  dress.
14.Serena ChaCha (In Juries' ranking:13th)
Her lipsync saved her from her terrible,yelling ''boy in a dress'' dress.But if i was one of the juries,i would make Jade and Serena fight for their lives,and took Serena away from competition.It was such a failure.

So that's all i can say about the first episode of RuPaul's Drag Race.I hope my faves(Jade,Alaska,Detox,Jinkx and Lineysha) can win! C'ya boys,girls and all in between!

I'll Wait For You

Another night and i'm dancing with the darkness,
While my desperateness and future comes together
And my arms are bleeding,
With an ache in my heart.

Beauty is important,maybe
But it's definitely not in the eye of beholder
And we are all aids
Not healthy like the beautiful people
In this European plague mass.

I will still wait for you,
'Cause you are the light of my dark visions,
Come please,come fast and tell that you came
'Cause i can't try to find you anymore.
But i will still wait for you.

I'm happy after all
'Cause i can see us dancing
And you heal all of my scars,
Like i do the same to you.

Everybody that i love
Tried to hurt and kill me
But you,you will be different
The light is near,is that you?

Love fucks people at midnights.

Why do people need it so much

All those kiss,screw and touch

Love sucks

Especially when it happens to an ugly whore

Why do people buy all those things

For their lovers,once in a year

If you find love,every day is Valentine's Day

But if you couldn't find,don't look for it anyway.

Cause you'll find it in somewhere impossible.

And you'll yell;LOVE FUCKS.

All the lovers are stupid as hell

And the forever alones as well

But you need to join a club

So,expect for a diamond or

Cry all day

But never be an attention whore.

Just Fuck Off

Hey,would you kill me today?

With a knife,a gun,or something else.

I can't take all this weird shit,

And the worst,feeling like a shit when i'm with you.

I must get killed

I've gone too far

And now,I'm trying too hard

But i know,it will be all end with self-harm

So kill me before you leave

Do a favour to me

At least,pretend like you're loving me

Or just spit to my grave.

I said that i'm a stalker,

I warned you before.

Why you're still talking to me?

Let me cut myself,all alone.

I know,you don't need

A selfish,little,depressed bitch

Stop being kind and

Just tell me to fuck off.

Your girlfriend is a hot chick,

Well,mine is a witch calling ''Sadness''

So i think you understood my situation,

Get back from me and have fun with the others.

Happyland

I killed my mother

Then i kicked out her lover

I was sober while all this

So,I went to Happyland.

Their life was raped,

Their future was screwed.

I still miss

People of Happyland

They were opposite of everything,

That you call ''normal''

All borders of mind

Were destroyed by them

Nevermind everything

Just smile and take the drugs

And join the people of Happyland

Queers,weirdos and lovely little unicorns

They're all hiding in this small country.

There's a place that everyone's insane

Calling Happyland.